So besides sucking at life sometimes I seem to be sucking at blogging. Oh well, I guess I'll live. I haven't updated in a long time cuz I haven't been able to sort out my thoughts into words. Tears have unfortunately been common lately as I've been feeling kinda empty. I just feel incomplete and that I cannot live up to my own expectations. Everyone goes through funks and dry times and I'm in that right now.
Some great things have happened in my life recently which it's been good to have some wet and full times in a long period of dry and empty. My beloved Saturn that I've driven since my junior year of high school broke down a few weeks ago. I just couldn't stand putting even more money in it and so I got a new (at least to me) car; a 1998 Toyota Camry XLE. It's sweet and I love driving it. Hopefully it'll last me at least half as long as the Saturn. Plus through that my parents came out and helped me look for a car and cosigned a loan so that I could get one. They are amazing and I hope that someday I can be as good of parents as them.
Other sucky things that have happened (I just need to vent) are that my dog Scooby died and he was my baby and I miss him so much. I've never been that affected by a dog and I feel crazy even writing that here. Also I haven't fricking been on a real date in what seems like forever. I would at least like to experience that kind of love that people experience once in my life. I hear alot of you saying or thinking, "It'll happen someday." but this is what I feel now and I know that it will happen and it'll be great but it's too hard to focus on that right now.
So there you have it.
